It started by remembering my 11 years of being single, turned to giving God my full day. Fasting a full day and choosing God first. First over everything. Choosing Him first, seeking the Kingdom of God first and chasing my purpose only. And as I watched a sermon by Michael Todd again, Are You A Paper Chaser?, I learned that the answer to that question was Yes. Unfortunately. But also fortunate that I found out now, in this 3-month Fasting & Prayer or also now called my Season of Change. Because this fire within me is burning intensely, I have a hunger for the Lord and to stay in His presence. So then the answer to the same question was: “Yes, but I don’t want to anymore”. And so I learned again. God opened my eyes to see what I was paying attention to and what I was still chasing after instead of my purpose.
Matthew 6:24 [HCSB] – “No one can be a slave of two masters, since either he will hate one and love the other, or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot be slaves of God and of money.”
Somewhere in the middle of that sermon God spoke to me and told me to make a sacrifice. A sacrifice of a project that has been receiving priority over my purpose. Fasting from it for 3 weeks till the 1st of December. And I did. I obeyed, made the decision and made the leap. It was hard, I won’t lie nor hide. I wrote a part of my explanation out for the others involved in the project. I took my time, prayed over it and sent it. Choosing God first.
Romans 12:1 [MSG] – “So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him.”
This verse speaks of an offering placing everything before God. These next three weeks won’t only be me placing this project before God, but it will be a sacrifice: me giving it up. I don’t know how God wants me to continue after, but I know that this is needed for me to get my priorities straight. To get a base routine going which only involves God and my purpose. The rest will follow and all will fall into plan ánd into order. I don’t regret anything and I’m excited to spend this time with Him; breaking old habits and making new ones.
Purpose over paper.